Well, it’s finally all over. Today I took my comlex test and all I can say is…dang. I literally have no idea how that went, but I do not feel great right now. First of all, it was SO LONG. I got to my testing center super early again, around 715 (it was supposed to start at 8am). It was at the same place as my usmle, so I was very used to the routine. I got into my cubicle (my lucky # again!) around 730 and got through the first 2 blocks without much problem time-wise. I think my second block had a lot of experimental questions because there were multiple audio and visual media one after the other. At least I hope some were experimental, because that block was HARD. I decided to take the optional break (i took only 5 min) because I had to pee and refuel. The next 2 blocks were more frustrating for me. I found that there were so many short question stems and they expected you to pick the best answer out of many good answers. Also, a ton of micro and OMM. Like, I totally should have studied OMM more, but these questions were so out of my range. I don’t think I would have ever come across them even if I had another month to study. I also think I made a lot of dumb mistakes, which I really need to work on. I just HATE looking over my questions after I do them. I don’t know why but it’s such a drag for me to do it and I get a lot of questions wrong on tests that way. I took the 40 min lunch break but was anxious to get the test done so I went back in early. The last 4 blocks were a blur. Some questions were super straightforward, and some were absolute guesses. The most frustrating part was that I didn’t see any questions on the things that I was expecting, very little ethics, very little pathophysiology, LOTS of OMM. That’s all I remember.
Now I’m literally vegging and planning my week and a half off for summer.
I’m glad it’s over.
I’ve gone through all of FA in 4 days. Wow. These were the most mentally tiring days of… my whole life. Today was really tough because I had to go through repro and resp, both of which I really hate. Also I’m getting my period in a couple of days and it’s really affecting my concentration. This always happens a week before my period- my mind gets really foggy out of nowhere and no matter how much coffee I consume, I still feel fatigued and concentrating is really hard. This makes me really nervous about the test 😦 but hopefully my endorphins will override all of that on the actual test day. There’s nothing else I can really do about it anyways. My plans for the next 2 days are to skim through my highlights and annotations from goljan, pathoma and brs physio. And then review GI and Repro, which are 2 topics I struggle the most with. I also plan on doing 2 sets of timed uworld questions a day (the ones that I got wrong). Then on wednesday, the day before the big test, I’m going to take it easy. Probably just read the rapid review at the end of FA and shave my legs and get my eyebrows waxed since those details of my life have been neglected for the past month -.-
An update on my p90x progress…
I am officially done with my first week! It’s crazy how different I feel already. I mean I am no where near where I want to be, but my calves are aching, my tiny guns are popping out and just in general, I feel pretty healthy. Today was kempo X day and I’m really not a fan. I’m used to doing really hardcore cardio workouts and this was on a beginner level in my opinion. I did get a sweat in, especially during those jumping jack moments, but I wish there was a little more cardio. I’m actually a huge fan of HIIT so maybe I’m just used to thinking, if it’s not HIIT, it’s a waste of time.
I’m also not following the p90x diet plan, but I started using the myfitnesspal app and it’s AMAZING! It has EVERY type of food/product that you can imagine. I mean I even looked up “costco seafood stuffed mushroom with shrimp” and it was there! It also gives you a breakdown of your macros (carbs, protein, fats) each day so that you know where your calories are coming from. I find that at 10pm when I’m craving a klondike bar, I look at my calorie intake on myfitnesspal for the day and more often than not, I put down the bar because I know it would bring me over my calorie limit. So it definitely helps me keep track of my calorie intake and I highly recommend using it!
Today was a hard day emotionally. One of those days where I’m sitting down for the whole day studying and wondering why the hell is my life like this at 23? And maybe I should have gone into dentistry.
I’ve got 9 more days until my usmle and it’s getting really rough to try and pull myself to study anymore. First of all, even though there are a ton of things I still don’t know, I am so sick of doing uworld. I can’t bring myself to read through the whole question, let alone all the explanations which makes me wonder if doing uworld is even helping me at this point. Then I go do a block of comquest and those questions seem much more harder to me even though the questions are shorter. When I get a question wrong in uworld, the right answer was usually my second choice. When I get something wrong in comquest it’s because I have no fucking clue what they’re even asking me. This makes me really nervous because I feel like I haven’t seen these concepts at all during my studying. Am I spending too much time focusing on the usmle? Am I going to be that unfortunate soul to pass my usmle but do terrible on the comlex?
So frustrating trying to study at this point. I’m going to take one more nbme (took 2 already + 1 comsae) and that’ll be my last one before the real thing next thursday. I’m really hoping I do better than my last score. I don’t expect to score 240+ at all because I know i’m not at that level but I just want to do better than my last nbme. Then i’ll feel confident for the real test. I’m going to push through this last week and remind myself that this is only one small time in my life and I have to give it all that i’ve got just for this short time. Then it’ll be all worth it (?).
On a totally different note, I started p90x. I know you’re not supposed to change up your lifestyle routine too dramatically near your test, but i’ve been working out pretty hard for the past couple of months and I’ve attempted p90x previously so I felt pretty good about starting it again. I’m only on day 2 of the classic program but I feel great! Last time I tried p90x (about a year ago) I didn’t have great endurance or strength so I started on the Lean program. Now, with a much better fitness base, I feel much better doing the exercises. My stats are NOT impressive really… I’m a 5’4” 100lb tiny female, but I can get through most of the exercises. I don’t own a pull up bar which makes up a huge part of chest & back workouts, but I just modify with free weight chest/back exercises and I still get a good workout. I’m also trying to modify my diet. I eat a pretty healthy diet, but I’m definitely a carb lover, so I’m trying to cut some of that out. Anyways, I’ve exercised regularly my whole life pretty much but I’m hoping that this program will really push me over my plateau.